Whats the meaning?! i'm desperate!

The Velourium Camper II: Backend of Forever Lyrics
Artist(Band):Coheed And Cambria

Rocked silent in a soft lullaby
panic stirred me awakened by a ringing phone in time
where and when would I see her?
Crazy were the words that scribbled out your mouth
I stuttered replacing your face to those words
where and when could I kill her?
I'll wish on this, I'll wish with this
I wish...to the bitter end of my day
well.. where were you?

So you had your turn and you made it work
now I'm the laughing stock of your joke
as crazy as it may seem I cried for you when you
told me to date all of the things that made you end up in my life
and I'll believe anything I have no luck with girls

I overheard that you were unhappy too
a misleading toss into a relationship that makes no sense
over and out and Connecticut
but you had your back turned as you faded away
the end of my day I found out
you weren't worth what I thought of you

Write this down in the diary you abuse
can we make plans can I just get through to you
is this weird...do I scare her?
I'll wish on this, I'll wish with this
I wish...that you could share the love you'd shared with others, with me

So you had your turn and you made it work
now I'm the laughing stock of your joke
as crazy as it may seem I cried for you when you
told me to date all of the things that made you end up in my life
and I'll believe anything I have no luck with girls

I overheard that you were unhappy too
a misleading toss into a relationship that makes no sense
over and out Connecticut
but you had your back turned as you faded away
the end of my day I found out
you weren't worth what I thought of you

But this isn't love so forever let it go...forever will it burn
But this isn't love there on the backend of forever I wish I would never hurt again


UGGGHHH; EXPLAIN IT.
>_< dammitt! i have a feeling it's me. ALWAYS BEEEN.
>_< fudgeee!