i am trying my hardest.

I am so blessed I'm living in the life better then it was before. "Change is what we believe in" I swear, i need to stop thinking about him, but guess what, what happens next? >_< I'm trying to go strong without you, and it ends up that your still in my face but in reality your not there, in front of me, with your gazed dark sparks eyes straight straight at mines, with that connection, in a blink away your not there, all of the sudden you disappear, and blink again, your there, can i stay forever in your eyes only, just me, only me please. i may be desperate, but i think our "love" could be the real thing, that your meant to be mine, i don't know, there no FORCE in love, so i think you should find a girl soon, find someone already, FIND THE ONE, for you, that will treat you right, PLEASE! I'm suffering! knowing that your still single, are u waiting, because your a MAN, you need to find someone, where GIRLS OUT THERE ARE WAITING FOR THERE MEANT TO BE, THERE TRUE LOVE! please, please, please, find someone now. I'm sacrificing everything for you, i want you to tell me the answer," DO YOU THINK THERE ANYONE ELSE, ANYWHERE NEAR YOU, ANYONE THAT THINK OF YOU EVERY SINGLE, SECOND, MINUTE, HOUR, DAY, MONTH, YEAR? tell me, TELL ME! with your voice, is the only way i can know the truth, IS YOU, IS YOUR VOICE, TELL ME EVERYTHING, WHAT YOU WANT, BECAUSE I WANT TO BE THE ONLY GIRL IN YOUR LIFE, THAT HELD YOUR HANDS, AND HOLD ONTO IT FOREVER, FOREVER IS A STRONG WORD AND FEELING BECAUSE I REMAIN HAVING YOU FOREVER IN ME, BUT CAN I BE IN YOURS TOO PLEASE? CAN I HAVE THE CHANCE TO DO THE THINGS I WANTED TO DO WITH YOU YEARS AGO, I WANT IT TO BE MEMORABLE, I WANT US TO TREASURE IT FOREVER, THAT I WANT YOU TO KNOW WHO I AM, THE REAL ME, THE PERSON I AM THAT REFLECTS ON YOU, YOUR THE ONE THAT CHANGED ME FOR THE BETTER, I CAN BE A BETTER PERSON FOR YOU, I WILL RESPECT YOU. I WILL HONER YOU. I WILL SUPPORT YOU. I WILL CHERISH YOU. I WILL BE BY YOUR SIDE, I WANT TO BE, BECAUSE YOUR THE ONLY ONE, THAT BRINGS MY STRONGEST POINT, THE OTHER BOYS OUT THERE BRING MY WEAKEST POINTS, I WANT SOMEONE WHO I CAN BELIEVE IN, NOT HAVE SECOND THOUGHTS, WHEN YOU LEND YOUR HANDS TO ME, I WISHED THAT I HELD ONTO THAT FOREVER, I WISH I HELD OF THAT SO TIGHT THAT I WLL NEVER EVER THOUGHT OF LETTING YOU GO IN THE FIRST PLACE, I WOULD OF HAD SO MUCH MEMORIES, I WOULD OF BE SO MUCH HAPPIER THEN I AM TODAY, SO MUCH LOVE, SO MUCH JOYFUL MEMORIES, SO MUCH LOVELY KISSES, SO MUCH WARM HUGS, SO MUCH SMILES, SO MUCH THINGS THAT WE DONE, i miss you terribly, i miss you, forever.