MINA & GINO :) THAT ONE WATER SUNDE <33

[21:00] minaluvyou: Hey you :)
[21:01] DeCallMeGno: hey
[21:01] minaluvyou: What sup
[21:01] DeCallMeGno: nmm
[21:01] minaluvyou: ohh okay
[21:01] DeCallMeGno: tireeddd=-O
[21:01] minaluvyou: oh what did u do?
[21:01] DeCallMeGno: nothing lol...just like hanged around lol
[21:01] minaluvyou: oic.
[21:01] DeCallMeGno: honesty i sleep like this timee around lol
[21:01] DeCallMeGno: i knoe
[21:01] DeCallMeGno: sad
[21:01] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:01] minaluvyou: ohh
[21:01] minaluvyou: u sleep
[21:02] minaluvyou: i think it's a habit
[21:02] minaluvyou: right?
[21:02] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:02] DeCallMeGno: yaaaa
[21:02] minaluvyou: so
[21:02] minaluvyou: did u watch the performance at lunch today
[21:02] DeCallMeGno: lol like towards the end of itt lol
[21:03] minaluvyou: lol
[21:03] minaluvyou: the bboys
[21:03] minaluvyou: XD
[21:03] minaluvyou: that why iwatched
[21:03] minaluvyou: lol me and my friends were cheering
[21:03] minaluvyou: so loud
[21:03] DeCallMeGno: LOL
[21:03] DeCallMeGno: icccc.......
[21:03] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:03] minaluvyou: LOL.
[21:03] minaluvyou: well there my friends.
[21:03] minaluvyou: aha.
[21:03] DeCallMeGno: trueee
[21:04] minaluvyou: ^^' so um, why did u get a good score
[21:04] minaluvyou: on geo test
[21:04] minaluvyou: and how did it go with chem quiz?
[21:04] DeCallMeGno: LOL it simple i studied...lol..aahahah it not that hardddd and chem pshhhh i bomb it 4shureee lol
[21:04] DeCallMeGno: so yaaa
[21:04] DeCallMeGno: ahaahah
[21:04] minaluvyou: T-T
[21:05] minaluvyou: i guess ur smarter than me.
[21:05] minaluvyou: ohh did usee ur grade for english
[21:05] minaluvyou: lol but my class grades didnt' get posted up
[21:05] minaluvyou: casue it's not fully graded yet.
[21:05] DeCallMeGno: ohh
[21:05] DeCallMeGno: noo
[21:05] DeCallMeGno: he didnt say anythign bout it so i ono
[21:05] minaluvyou: lol i look at the board
[21:05] minaluvyou: where the grades are posted
[21:05] minaluvyou: i'm expecting a good grade
[21:06] DeCallMeGno: sikeeee
[21:06] DeCallMeGno: jk
[21:06] DeCallMeGno: jk
[21:06] minaluvyou: lol.
[21:06] minaluvyou: so what do u usually do on weekends?
[21:06] DeCallMeGno: LOL
[21:06] DeCallMeGno: ahahahaha
[21:06] DeCallMeGno: stuffffff
[21:06] DeCallMeGno: loll
[21:06] minaluvyou: ohh
[21:06] minaluvyou: i see.
[21:06] minaluvyou: lol
[21:06] minaluvyou: XD
[21:06] minaluvyou: sunday going to be fun
[21:06] minaluvyou: ^^'
[21:06] DeCallMeGno: reallyyy..
[21:07] minaluvyou: yah
[21:07] minaluvyou: mines & my friend fiona bday party at my house
[21:07] minaluvyou: XD
[21:07] minaluvyou: lol.
[21:08] DeCallMeGno: oh fo sho
[21:08] DeCallMeGno: happy b day in advancee
[21:08] minaluvyou: lol
[21:08] minaluvyou: noo it's jsut a party
[21:08] minaluvyou: XD
[21:08] minaluvyou: u greeted e
[21:08] minaluvyou: me
[21:08] DeCallMeGno: ohh
[21:08] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:08] DeCallMeGno: ahaha
[21:08] minaluvyou: a day after my bdya
[21:08] minaluvyou: XD
[21:08] minaluvyou: T-T
[21:08] DeCallMeGno: see im slippin that means im sleepy
[21:08] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:08] minaluvyou: LOL AHAHHAH
[21:09] minaluvyou: you should
[21:09] minaluvyou: drink coffee or something
[21:11] DeCallMeGno: LOL
[21:11] DeCallMeGno: it nasty
[21:11] minaluvyou: lol
[21:11] minaluvyou: i drink it with hazalnut cream and coco powder XD
[21:11] DeCallMeGno: LOL
[21:11] minaluvyou: it's really good.
[21:11] DeCallMeGno: ill passs
[21:11] minaluvyou: lol.
[21:11] minaluvyou: but
[21:12] minaluvyou: ur too fat
[21:12] minaluvyou: XD
[21:12] minaluvyou: :P
[21:12] minaluvyou: i'm jking.
[21:12] DeCallMeGno: LOL i knoee
[21:12] DeCallMeGno: i am
[21:12] DeCallMeGno: fatt
[21:12] DeCallMeGno: bruhh
[21:12] DeCallMeGno: goshhh
[21:12] DeCallMeGno: i h8 myslef
[21:12] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:12] minaluvyou: i punched up
[21:12] minaluvyou: u*
[21:12] minaluvyou: on the arm
[21:12] minaluvyou: i'm like
[21:12] minaluvyou: XD IT GIGGLES
[21:12] minaluvyou: jiggles*
[21:12] minaluvyou: ahah
[21:13] DeCallMeGno: wow
[21:13] DeCallMeGno: meanyyy lol
[21:13] DeCallMeGno: im not that fatttttttttttttttttttt
[21:13] DeCallMeGno: hella shadyyyyy
[21:13] DeCallMeGno: -_-
[21:13] minaluvyou: i'm jkaying. ahahha.
[21:13] minaluvyou: but
[21:13] minaluvyou: lol
[21:13] minaluvyou: it kinda true.
[21:14] minaluvyou: but i think it suits you
[21:14] minaluvyou: i can't imagine u skinnier
[21:14] minaluvyou: XD
[21:14] DeCallMeGno: LOL
[21:14] DeCallMeGno: i ono
[21:14] minaluvyou: do u have a pic of urself skinny
[21:14] minaluvyou: LOL
[21:14] DeCallMeGno: i was like exercsing ova the last summer but i ono i kinda stopp lol
[21:14] DeCallMeGno: to lazy
[21:14] DeCallMeGno: but 4 shure ima go bakk
[21:14] DeCallMeGno: gosh h8 being fatt
[21:14] DeCallMeGno: :-(
[21:14] DeCallMeGno: not kool
[21:15] minaluvyou: lol
[21:15] minaluvyou: i know
[21:15] minaluvyou: well
[21:15] minaluvyou: a lot of ppl called me fat lately
[21:15] minaluvyou: and tell me to workout
[21:15] minaluvyou: T-T
[21:15] minaluvyou: it hurts me.
[21:15] minaluvyou: but i understnad
[21:15] minaluvyou: that they care about my health
[21:15] minaluvyou: XD
[21:16] DeCallMeGno: LOL well i stop eating all kinds of stuff but i ono
[21:16] DeCallMeGno: dont wrry
[21:16] DeCallMeGno: senior year or towards the year as it progresses
[21:16] DeCallMeGno: ima l00k different
[21:16] DeCallMeGno: ;-)
[21:16] minaluvyou: lol okay that sounds like a good goal :)
[21:16] minaluvyou: becuase we gotta go to hella stuff senior year
[21:16] minaluvyou: XD
[21:17] minaluvyou: senior cruise, prom, spirit skit, dances. D
[21:17] minaluvyou: lol
[21:17] minaluvyou: ^^; u better go next year.
[21:17] DeCallMeGno: i ammmmmm
[21:18] minaluvyou: lol. cool :)
[21:18] minaluvyou: gliddeee
[21:18] minaluvyou: lol
[21:18] minaluvyou: make a video
[21:18] minaluvyou: soon
[21:18] minaluvyou: XD
[21:19] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:19] DeCallMeGno: surree
[21:19] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:19] DeCallMeGno: but im too fat to make a vid
[21:19] DeCallMeGno: -_-
[21:19] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:20] minaluvyou: lol!
[21:20] minaluvyou: who cares
[21:20] minaluvyou: not like ur going to be model
[21:20] minaluvyou: or like, in public... with thousands of ppl
[21:20] minaluvyou: XD
[21:20] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:20] DeCallMeGno: well ti gonna be viewed on youtube lol
[21:20] DeCallMeGno: ahahaaha
[21:20] DeCallMeGno: i ono
[21:20] DeCallMeGno: will see
[21:20] minaluvyou: lol
[21:20] DeCallMeGno: im too fatt
[21:20] minaluvyou: okay
[21:20] minaluvyou: :)
[21:21] DeCallMeGno: maybe when i l00k smaller
[21:21] minaluvyou: lol ur not that fat
[21:21] minaluvyou: like a sumo
[21:21] minaluvyou: XD
[21:21] minaluvyou: thats going to take forever
[21:21] minaluvyou: did u even do well in pe
[21:21] minaluvyou: XD
[21:21] minaluvyou: for 2 years
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: yaa
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: i pass all fitness thingys
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: and the pushupps were hella easy
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: and mile..i killed datt
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: so yaa
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: i ono
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: i think im destined to l00k like thisss
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:22] DeCallMeGno: -_-
[21:23] minaluvyou: PUSH UPS t-t
[21:23] minaluvyou: is hell.
[21:23] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:23] DeCallMeGno: not that hardd
[21:23] minaluvyou: i ahve pe
[21:23] DeCallMeGno: pretty easy
[21:23] minaluvyou: started 2nd semester
[21:23] minaluvyou: XD
[21:23] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:23] DeCallMeGno: how many can u do?
[21:23] minaluvyou: push ups? T-T i remember last year for the test thingy i got like 5 XD
[21:23] minaluvyou: lol
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: wtf
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: ahahaah
[21:24] minaluvyou: i suck at it.
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: weak sause
[21:24] minaluvyou: what is ur best and worst ile time
[21:24] minaluvyou: XD omg
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: obviously..l00k @ ur arms
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: jk
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: jkjkj
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: kjk
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: jkjk
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:24] minaluvyou: what
[21:24] minaluvyou: XD
[21:24] minaluvyou: i'm actually stronger then u think
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: i knoe u are
[21:24] minaluvyou: i broke the shower handle today
[21:24] minaluvyou: this morning
[21:24] minaluvyou: XD
[21:24] DeCallMeGno: l00k can be deceving
[21:24] minaluvyou: lol
[21:24] minaluvyou: XD
[21:25] DeCallMeGno: so yaa
[21:25] DeCallMeGno: i ono
[21:25] minaluvyou: i neeed to loose weight someday
[21:25] minaluvyou: sooner
[21:25] minaluvyou: u need
[21:25] minaluvyou: to get a "get taller" pill
[21:25] minaluvyou: XD
[21:25] minaluvyou: lol
[21:25] minaluvyou: ur cousin
[21:25] minaluvyou: is tall
[21:25] minaluvyou: XD
[21:25] minaluvyou: i'm like WTFREAK why is gino a midget
[21:25] minaluvyou: XD
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: aww
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: it like dat now huh
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:26] minaluvyou: :P
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: idccc
[21:26] minaluvyou: ahah
[21:26] minaluvyou: but
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: if hes taller then mee
[21:26] minaluvyou: i think ur a teddy bear
[21:26] minaluvyou: lol
[21:26] minaluvyou: XD
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: least im not a pot head
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: =0
[21:26] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:26] minaluvyou: LOL.
[21:26] minaluvyou: ohh so he a bad boy
[21:26] minaluvyou: i hates guy like that
[21:26] minaluvyou: dude
[21:26] minaluvyou: i found out irvin smokes
[21:26] minaluvyou: T-T
[21:26] minaluvyou: he told me to put a cigarette in his backpack at brunch
[21:27] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:28] DeCallMeGno: like i said...l00kz can be deceving...thel east thing u knoe they aint gonna do,...end up doing so yaa
[21:28] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:28] DeCallMeGno: im ceannn
[21:28] DeCallMeGno: 4 sho
[21:28] DeCallMeGno: ^^
[21:28] minaluvyou: lol aww
[21:28] minaluvyou: like water
[21:28] minaluvyou: :)
[21:28] minaluvyou: with a bit of sugar
[21:28] minaluvyou: and fattie stuff in it
[21:28] minaluvyou: XD
[21:29] minaluvyou: that you, a water sundae XD
[21:30] DeCallMeGno: wow u like hella omgg
[21:30] DeCallMeGno: not kool
[21:30] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:31] minaluvyou: lol
[21:31] minaluvyou: I like to play aorund
[21:31] minaluvyou: with u
[21:31] minaluvyou: lol
[21:31] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:31] DeCallMeGno: i can telll
[21:31] DeCallMeGno: mann ima enroll into a gym nowww
[21:31] DeCallMeGno: gosshhh
[21:31] DeCallMeGno: not kool
[21:31] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:31] minaluvyou: lol
[21:31] minaluvyou: :P
[21:31] minaluvyou: aha
[21:33] minaluvyou: if u do, u better get me pass too
[21:33] minaluvyou: xd
[21:33] DeCallMeGno: no u dont need it...i dooo
[21:33] minaluvyou: lol i need it
[21:33] minaluvyou: hit my stoumach
[21:33] minaluvyou: it like all jiggly
[21:34] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:34] DeCallMeGno: well ur a gurl
[21:34] DeCallMeGno: im a guyy
[21:34] minaluvyou: yah
[21:34] minaluvyou: so
[21:34] DeCallMeGno: i need to l00se it and git muscle
[21:34] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:34] minaluvyou: lol
[21:34] minaluvyou: okay then.
[21:34] minaluvyou: well i need to loose it to look and feel better
[21:34] minaluvyou: about myself.
[21:34] minaluvyou: and ppl will be giving me good compliments
[21:37] minaluvyou: lol
[21:37] minaluvyou: maybe when u loose weight, u should glide. in public.
[21:37] minaluvyou: XD
[21:37] DeCallMeGno: ohh sure will
[21:37] DeCallMeGno: lol
[21:38] DeCallMeGno: well yaa ima go noww
[21:38] DeCallMeGno: l8ter

CSI:CRUSH OR NOT

CSI:CRUSH OR NOT
PLOT: To be able to see if the guy Gino, is crushing on carmina, or just as a friend.
FILES:
- TALK TO HIM IN GEOMETRY
- WALK WITH HIM TO 2ND PERIOD
- SAY HI TO HIM AT LUNCH/ WHEREVER
ETC!
Episode one - Tomorrow! put your stunna shades on! :)

I never thought I Could.

I'm now bringing up my feelings in the public, well. shine.yahoo.com XD blogging. about you. i want to see more comments about how they react, i should start blogging there not here. who will see it here? anyways, yah. maybe i can learn something new.
ask for advices & all.
let see how it goes. i'll do it on the weekend.
school started again today.
i miss break already :(
anyways.
peace out!
-Mina

If you NEVER moved on from your ex, and want to find a way GO CLICK HERE :)

Hi, I'm Carmina, I'm a 16 year old teenager girl and lived her life as for her own ex, even though me and him no longer contact anymore. But, we don't live that far from each other. Newark-Fremont. But, I live burden by rejecting him, and getting rejected. It's seems like a permanent situation where as thinking, "He was the guy i've always dream of being with. Everything i've ever wished for." He was my only boyfriend.

Have you ever thought of your ex-boyfriend for 4 years or more? Well, I do. Basically, everyday and night I'm always thinking about him constantly. it's scary because there never a day that he off of my mind. You know Why:

I never got to tell him the reason why i broke up with him in the first place
I am always keeping in contact with his sister
I keep writing poems about the break up, or what I wish i've done with him.
I am always praying for him at church to have a healthy long life.
I look at his pictures on myspace & photo bucket
On my birthday I wished about him to come into my life again

There is more but, this is good for now. I guess, it's hard right. To find ways to move on, when your trying your very hardest. You may like this idea,


STEPS TO DO WITH HIM TO BECOME A HAPPIER PERSON:
Firstly find a nice box,i call it the, "everything i've always wanted to do box" to put these items inside:
A letter about how you feel about him, questions you want to ask him, what you wish could have done. write something that you ever wanted tell him. it's good to write happy memories with these person. Of course, write about why you broke up with him in the first place.
Items you wanted to give him that you couldn't do it before-hand because you were living in misery.
You can give the person photographs with you and him. If not, then yourself and you can note why you put that photo for example: Me smiling big, the reason is because he likes to see me smile with laughter and joy.
So, you may put other stuff in there too.

Now this where YOU need to find a PERFECT day where you can start fresh and new with your ex-boyfriend by giving him that "everything i've always wanted to do box". The ONLY way you can do it, is going to his doorsteps at his HOME to give it to him and TELL HIM: This is for you, and I have to discuss many important things with you between us. Nobody told me to do this, it's for the best for my future because i want to be a happier & successful person after all this heartache and untold problems about you. it's been 4 (this is an example by the way so you can change it up a bit) years since i've lost contact with you and I really hope you understand this is the hardest thing i've ever done my whole life. (YOU CAN GO ON TALKING ABOUT WHAT YOU WANTED TO SAY TO HIM AND ALL). such as, I wanted to tell my ex-boyfriend, What happen to US? Why aren't we talking anymore? Where have you been in my whole life?
The best location on talking to him about the stuff i've said above is at a park, lake, somewhere peace and quite, where it's just you and him.

I hope this works for me and I hope this works for you. I am starting to the "everything i've always wanted to tell you box" and so, please comment if your doing this. Ask me questions and such.

Thanks for reading.
-Carmina Canilao

Just a WISH i want to be granted.

Someday i want to have to urge to go on the stair steps to your home. Having the moment where i knock on that door waiting nervously. I want to be able to say,"Hey, is Jervie there?" and You showed up. Lending me the way into the house as a manly way of respect. I sit on your couch while you set me a glass of water. Your mom asked to stay for dinner. i said,"if he doesn't mind, then sure." Him looking a bit nervous. while i feel a bit surprised eating with his family of 4. Then, afterwards I asked jervie, i have something to show him but, not in the house. I told him, lets take it to the park. He was like okay sure. while waiting for the light to pass the cross walk I stared at him because i wonder how he going to feel about "the box of questions and memories". the moment we sat down i told him,"What I'm showing you now, is what i've prepare for you over these years we haven't kept in touch and all, these are all the questions and memories i've had in my head for years now, and i want to honestly reply it to me now because your the truth, nobody else." So, as we go by each question let list it instead.
-Did you honestly ever love/liked me? which one and why?
I wanted to fall in love with you but you ended it so short that i didn't have that chance, but i know that i liked you before, because somewhat you had something i really admire, it was your laughter and sense of humor.
-When we were going out for a few days, how did you feel at that moment?
I felt like it was a good experience even thou it was short, holding your hands constantly was very warm
-After i called you for a rejection, how did you feel?
I feel like what have i done to you to make you reject me, i don't even know why you rejected me, i felt like i was a good person now i don't think that anymore.
-What was important between us in our friendship?
I thought the math buddies and all such was important
-Have I ever crossed your mind, anytime?
yah. because people talked to me about you, and all such.
-When you rejected me, how did you feel?
I felt like i did the right thing, because yes i wanted freedom, yes i wanted to be single and break dance and such.
-Why did you reject me? (even though you answered this, please say it again)
Freedom.
-How come we never kept in touch?
i guess, because there a lot of drama about you before, i didn't want to be involve or like you moved so there was no way you know.
-Why & When we didn’t even speak to each other at all?
i guess because i knew you still liked me, and i guess because thats how couples do after they drift away
-Have you fallen for someone else after me?
Nope, i have been busy with break dancing.
-What did you like about me?
i think your laughter was the best, but now i guess there more stuff in you that i can like.
-What did you hate about me?
I never really hated you, maybe sometimes i thought you were annoying but i guess thats all.
-Could we refresh our friendship?
we can become better friends
-Can I get to know you better?
yeah, i guess, i feel like I'm the same guy as before.
-Can we keep in touch privately until were comfortable with each other at first?
I guess so, for the best of us
-Was there any changes in you personality/physically/personally because of me?
i don't really know, but you told me before to continue on break dancing, so i did. i guess.
So, there were more answers to questions and yet, i got what i wanted to know, it burden me to not know at all, so I'm glad to overcome this fear and step up for myself for my better future, now that i feel like me and him are so much better then before,
we exchanged cell phone numbers, and we became to talk about what we want to do in the future, yes we played around in the park. Today is was the most happiness day of my life, that i got what i wanted and he glad he got through me thick & thin. he finally understands me now :)


EVEN THOU THIS IS WHAT I WISH CAN HAPPEN, i'm just writing this because i feel like it good to imagine right? :) aha.

rough draft, still continuing.

Before you start reading. Find a place where your alone & keep this to yourself, because it will be the best for the both of us. it’s just between me & you. Even thou it’s long, bare with it because it’s good to know the truth by the one who sacrifice a whole lot, to get to this point where they have to do something about the past to move on to the future,happier.

Dear Jervie,
In this matter, I’m writing you this letter for my own sake (nobody telling me to do this) So, please take this as a sincere matter. I honestly want to tell you this in person but, since it’s difficult for me to do, i’ll write it instead. I’m hoping you will write back due to questions to be answered. I’ll ask you the questions later. So, it been since 8th grade until now, i still think of you. Somehow, you know things pop up that reminds you a certain someone and all that. Basically, you are like everywhere in my mind, in places, in terms of people that reminds me of you also. It’s scary yet, depressing too but, to clear it up this is the First Step on moving on.I wanted to tell you the moment you asked me out, or got hooked up, I remember clearly, this is like a shock for me,”Oh wow, I am going to be in a relationship,” But, at that time i was always going for those “attractive” guys. But, to me your not that bad looking at all (it took me honestly awhile to agree with that term). your pretty fit because your a b-boy. Before, you were like a skater type of guy and I used to not like those type of guys.When we were going out, we were holding hands people told us to do some couple-like stuff. Even when people were congratulating us & even say we do look like a couple too. That was a good compliment i’d keep to myself. I believe, as days goes by i’ve been thinking over head, like about my family & educational manners. Oh and i didn’t like how i look too, i feel like the way i look now is way much better. (my sisters know about it, not my parents but that afterwards, like a year later. ) I feel like we were too young or like i just began to have a normal lifestyle. even if you don’t remember, i remember the day we hugged after you walked me to my history class, when i was in history i was thinking of you and not paying attention in class. i realize now but not before it is natural because that how girls sense they are “in love”. Honestly, on the july fourth of 2006 that time where renee used to like you and i did at the same time. When that day she fussed over me and i was suffering so much. When i grabbed your hands and asked for another chance, you said no because you wanted to have,”Freedom”, it’s simple. I told you we can still be friends. As those days goes by i was drinking and i shoplifted too. I bet your thinking oh man she really a bad person after to all. When i found out you knew, i was telling myself I will never get that chance to be with him again.Then, i suffered more because i was in a term called, “Rejection”. It’s like a pill that takes time to let it go. It took me years to get over you, i got jealous a lot because I just went on a crazy roller coaster thinking,”Damn, she likes him. What the heck!” she as in Jonana. Yes her, i guess because I thought she liked you. and i was always telling myself while she was still single, i believe she has a boyfriend now, that she was the one that was able to make you happy and be the next girlfriend of yours. Well i thought a few more girls liked you but let me not mention their names. Honestly, If i gotten used to you in a friendship matter for a few years I think i would of become a better girlfriend then you think of. When i started to heal myself, i thought of way to study how couples become couples, and live a happy life even though there maybe troubles. I started to care about other people relationships more wisely and help them out. I was a bit in a love helper position. People adored how i thought of romantic ideas. Many friends that i’ve made were so into how in my perspective a real love is all about. Many friends were thinking that oh the next boyfriend will be lucky to have you, and i was like oh don’t think that, find a reason to hide the truth of everything going on inside me. But, anyways i don’t think you care about those stuff. But, in my honest statement that was the only was i can be a strong girl with a fragile heart. i wanted to see happiness in everyone. Even you, I want you to be a happy person. Here comes where i get stressed out a lot, when people ask me if i even been in love, or have/had a boyfriend, they make me go “ugh, i have to talk about this” i get stressed out. this girl name kimmy remember, she added you on myspace and talked to you on the phone and all, she was like forcing me to talk to you or something, I'm not friends with her anymore because she annoys the crap out of my past life. Anyways, I think the song “say goodbye” by chris brown did suit us a little bit except that you went with some other girl. “there’s never a right time, right time say goodbye...” We never really told each other off that it’s over, it’s done. we just silently set off to different paths in life. Especially, when i moved. I’m more of a stronger person because i don’t see you in my everyday life. If i did, i had to bare with it. Like remember we had P.E. together for the first semester in freshman year, I was like damn what am I going to do. But, ah the last conversation we really had was hard to remember, we didn’t verbally talked but chatted about how i can’t do push ups -__-; oh boy! you were like ha ha or something, and then i said shut up! and you did really shut up for a long time. I was trying too hard on myself. Ugh, REMEMBER (dude i remember a lot of things) we were math buddies, and you passed that class really good and I really didn’t really passed it, and you still asked for my homework. You need to do well in school, or future jobs, even b-boying too. Just don’t hurt yourself okay. I hope you have a good future, even though i feel like the world ending soon enough that we can’t do what we really want. But doing this is what i really wanted to do. As an accomplished thing, you need to reply back. Especially, answering these questions:
Write me anything, Ask me questions,write me about yourself that i don’t know. since i don’t see you at all anymore. Tell me what’s new with you.
-Did you honestly ever love/liked me? which one and why?
-When we were going out for a few days, how did you feel at that moment?
-After i called you for a rejection, how did you feel?
-What was important between us in our friendship?
-Have I ever crossed your mind, anytime?
-When you rejected me, how did you feel?
-Why did you reject me? (even though you answered this, please say it again)
-How come we never kept in touch?
-Why & When we didn’t even speak to each other at all?
-Have you fallen for someone else after me?
-What did you like about me?
-What did you hate about me?
-Could we refresh our friendship?
-Can I get to know you better?
-Can we keep in touch privately until were comfortable with each other at first?
-Was there any changes in you personality/physically/personally because of me?