If you NEVER moved on from your ex, and want to find a way GO CLICK HERE :)

Hi, I'm Carmina, I'm a 16 year old teenager girl and lived her life as for her own ex, even though me and him no longer contact anymore. But, we don't live that far from each other. Newark-Fremont. But, I live burden by rejecting him, and getting rejected. It's seems like a permanent situation where as thinking, "He was the guy i've always dream of being with. Everything i've ever wished for." He was my only boyfriend.

Have you ever thought of your ex-boyfriend for 4 years or more? Well, I do. Basically, everyday and night I'm always thinking about him constantly. it's scary because there never a day that he off of my mind. You know Why:

I never got to tell him the reason why i broke up with him in the first place
I am always keeping in contact with his sister
I keep writing poems about the break up, or what I wish i've done with him.
I am always praying for him at church to have a healthy long life.
I look at his pictures on myspace & photo bucket
On my birthday I wished about him to come into my life again

There is more but, this is good for now. I guess, it's hard right. To find ways to move on, when your trying your very hardest. You may like this idea,


STEPS TO DO WITH HIM TO BECOME A HAPPIER PERSON:
Firstly find a nice box,i call it the, "everything i've always wanted to do box" to put these items inside:
A letter about how you feel about him, questions you want to ask him, what you wish could have done. write something that you ever wanted tell him. it's good to write happy memories with these person. Of course, write about why you broke up with him in the first place.
Items you wanted to give him that you couldn't do it before-hand because you were living in misery.
You can give the person photographs with you and him. If not, then yourself and you can note why you put that photo for example: Me smiling big, the reason is because he likes to see me smile with laughter and joy.
So, you may put other stuff in there too.

Now this where YOU need to find a PERFECT day where you can start fresh and new with your ex-boyfriend by giving him that "everything i've always wanted to do box". The ONLY way you can do it, is going to his doorsteps at his HOME to give it to him and TELL HIM: This is for you, and I have to discuss many important things with you between us. Nobody told me to do this, it's for the best for my future because i want to be a happier & successful person after all this heartache and untold problems about you. it's been 4 (this is an example by the way so you can change it up a bit) years since i've lost contact with you and I really hope you understand this is the hardest thing i've ever done my whole life. (YOU CAN GO ON TALKING ABOUT WHAT YOU WANTED TO SAY TO HIM AND ALL). such as, I wanted to tell my ex-boyfriend, What happen to US? Why aren't we talking anymore? Where have you been in my whole life?
The best location on talking to him about the stuff i've said above is at a park, lake, somewhere peace and quite, where it's just you and him.

I hope this works for me and I hope this works for you. I am starting to the "everything i've always wanted to tell you box" and so, please comment if your doing this. Ask me questions and such.

Thanks for reading.
-Carmina Canilao