Just a WISH i want to be granted.

Someday i want to have to urge to go on the stair steps to your home. Having the moment where i knock on that door waiting nervously. I want to be able to say,"Hey, is Jervie there?" and You showed up. Lending me the way into the house as a manly way of respect. I sit on your couch while you set me a glass of water. Your mom asked to stay for dinner. i said,"if he doesn't mind, then sure." Him looking a bit nervous. while i feel a bit surprised eating with his family of 4. Then, afterwards I asked jervie, i have something to show him but, not in the house. I told him, lets take it to the park. He was like okay sure. while waiting for the light to pass the cross walk I stared at him because i wonder how he going to feel about "the box of questions and memories". the moment we sat down i told him,"What I'm showing you now, is what i've prepare for you over these years we haven't kept in touch and all, these are all the questions and memories i've had in my head for years now, and i want to honestly reply it to me now because your the truth, nobody else." So, as we go by each question let list it instead.
-Did you honestly ever love/liked me? which one and why?
I wanted to fall in love with you but you ended it so short that i didn't have that chance, but i know that i liked you before, because somewhat you had something i really admire, it was your laughter and sense of humor.
-When we were going out for a few days, how did you feel at that moment?
I felt like it was a good experience even thou it was short, holding your hands constantly was very warm
-After i called you for a rejection, how did you feel?
I feel like what have i done to you to make you reject me, i don't even know why you rejected me, i felt like i was a good person now i don't think that anymore.
-What was important between us in our friendship?
I thought the math buddies and all such was important
-Have I ever crossed your mind, anytime?
yah. because people talked to me about you, and all such.
-When you rejected me, how did you feel?
I felt like i did the right thing, because yes i wanted freedom, yes i wanted to be single and break dance and such.
-Why did you reject me? (even though you answered this, please say it again)
Freedom.
-How come we never kept in touch?
i guess, because there a lot of drama about you before, i didn't want to be involve or like you moved so there was no way you know.
-Why & When we didn’t even speak to each other at all?
i guess because i knew you still liked me, and i guess because thats how couples do after they drift away
-Have you fallen for someone else after me?
Nope, i have been busy with break dancing.
-What did you like about me?
i think your laughter was the best, but now i guess there more stuff in you that i can like.
-What did you hate about me?
I never really hated you, maybe sometimes i thought you were annoying but i guess thats all.
-Could we refresh our friendship?
we can become better friends
-Can I get to know you better?
yeah, i guess, i feel like I'm the same guy as before.
-Can we keep in touch privately until were comfortable with each other at first?
I guess so, for the best of us
-Was there any changes in you personality/physically/personally because of me?
i don't really know, but you told me before to continue on break dancing, so i did. i guess.
So, there were more answers to questions and yet, i got what i wanted to know, it burden me to not know at all, so I'm glad to overcome this fear and step up for myself for my better future, now that i feel like me and him are so much better then before,
we exchanged cell phone numbers, and we became to talk about what we want to do in the future, yes we played around in the park. Today is was the most happiness day of my life, that i got what i wanted and he glad he got through me thick & thin. he finally understands me now :)


EVEN THOU THIS IS WHAT I WISH CAN HAPPEN, i'm just writing this because i feel like it good to imagine right? :) aha.