i hate the way you think of me >:(

the song, on my previous blog. changed the way i thought of him, i never knew he was that serious. that his love life shook his world once more. lets go line by line, or what so.

Rocked silent in a soft lullaby
panic stirred me awakened by a ringing phone in time( WOW! you serious, your still shock after that chance you DIDN'T take from me, have you realize what would have been? seriously, i can't believe after all the years, you feel it now. see it's your fault, and that am i the one suppose to be hurt not you? SEE!)
where and when would I see her?(have you ever intend of seeing me in the first place, i could roam around the place, you just need to catch me, I'm waiting, I'm not thousands of miles away from you, you'll find me someday. if you wished)
Crazy were the words that scribbled out your mouth(PSH, you may think I'm crazy, but your fault! seriously, if i was with you still, you wouldn't though of that, i would of been the most beautiful in your eyes babe >_<)
I stuttered replacing your face to those words(WTH! oh sure, say whatever, believe what people say, but guess what, the truth is what spoken in my mouth, and i will say it right in front of you, i could cry, scream, yell, stomp my feet, that how i feel and sure, I'm surely used to it already)
where and when would I kill her?(WTH,kill me see what happens, your going to jail because your so SHOCK, that your own ex is strong enough to live on, and your stuck with your misery, cheer up emo kid)
I'll wish on this, I'll wish with this(HOPELESS WISHES, DAMN)
I, I'll wish... to the bitter end of my day
Well, where were you?(I'M HERE LIVING, DUH! i could be a phone call away but you don't have number)

[Chorus:]
So you had your turn and you made it work
now I'm the laughing stock of your joke(so what the point, what did i make that work, i never accomplished anything from you, i never made a goal when i as with you)
as crazy as it may seem I cried for you when you
told me to date all of the things that made you end up in my life(YOU ACTUALLY CRY! you never show any sadness to the public world, why can you be inside out, show yourself, express, hate me or love me cause i couldn't care less!)
and I'll believe anything I have no luck with girls(AHA! I BELIEVE IN THIS! seriously, i don't think any other girl would be just like me for you, seriously, i think if you try harder, HARDER, she could be right in front of your face right now, anywhere any time, you just got to do something about)
I overheard that you were unhappy too(OH BOY! of course, what about you, ur so sad too, believe me, if you could of work things out with me, we would be happy equally.)
misleading toss into a relationship that makes no sense(so what, have u ever tried, TRIED)
over and out Connecticut
but you had your back turned there as you faded away( because, i was hurt, and i didn't want u to se me hurt at all, because when i wanna come back to let you see me again, i wanna be a happy person)
to the end of my day I found out
you weren't worth what I thought of you
what I thought of you(I WASN'T worth it, psh because you didn't try hard enough, i thought u wouldn't regret it, i thought you hella accept me, but i guess not)

write this down in your diary you abuse
can we make plans can I just get through to you(FIND ME SERIOUSLY)
is this weird...do I scare her?(I'M NOT SCARED OF YOU, COME UP TO ME FOOL)
I'll wish on this, I'll wish with this
I, I'll wish... that you could share the love you'd shared with others, with me(OH BOY, I WAS GOING TO, LIKE YEARS AGO, LIKE NO PROBLEM, I DO SHARE MY LOVE AS FRIENDS,AND WITH YOU. SURE. COME TO ME)

[Chorus]

This isn't love so forever let it go...forever let it burn(LOVE is when we were together, PSH, u think right now is now, we don't ben talk anymore, it been years )
This isn't love there on the backend of forever
I wish I would never hurt again (YOU WISH! wow, i just hurt myself, u didn't do anything, well only one major thing that changed my life forever, rejection, but I'm over that are you?)